Ya sure, I want to be the BEST Momma I can be! Doesn’t every Mom, at least in the beginning? I want our daughter to be an all around good kid, not a little monster. The only problem is, I have NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL I’M DOING!
I’ve always been a very organized person. I usually know exactly what I’m getting myself into, but not with this kid. Either she’s a breed all her own, or I seriously underestimated children.
Like most first time Mom’s and Dad’s, I’m constantly second guessing myself. I came across this quote the other day on Facebook. It made me feel better. Like I’m not alone.
“Behind every great kid is a Mom who’s pretty sure she’s screwing it up.”
That’s me, 100% me!
Before our daughter was born I read every book I could get my hands on. I spent countless hours researching babies online. I even watched how-to-video’s for Baby’s first bath, and stuff like, how-to-burp a baby properly.
I can be a bit obsessive when it comes to certain things. I’m also a bit competitive by nature, and that is not a good mix. I know they say you should never compare your baby to other baby’s, but I couldn’t help myself then, and I still can’t. Just the other day at the Grocery Store, my bag lady was telling me all about how her 2 year old nephew can count to ten….. Guess what we did all the way home? I probably counted to ten 100 times. Oh, and then just last week I came across a video online. This 2 year old recited the entire alphabet without missing one letter…. Yep, for the past week, nothing but the alphabet song!
God I love her, more than anything. I can’t imagine life without her. I just kinda wish I knew what I was doing sometimes. I know it’s a learning process, and everyday she teaches me something new. I’m pretty sure it’s supposed to be the other way around. Sometimes I wonder where my “mother’s intuition” is hiding.
For now, my only mission in life is to be a good Mom, and let me tell ya, it’s a whole lot harder then I ever thought it would be.